Hello .....sorry been so busy....I've been off to war, DragonWars lol....and writing some and actually drawing also. Redrawing actually an old map I created a year ago for a book I had started and put down. I've decided to redo the story. So I'm going back and starting all over basically, just making changes...and taking my good ole time and letting my imagination run wild lol. Im using a wrting program called ywriter2 its free on the net, not too bad for free. Its rainy yucky here today, Im sleepy as usual...I think I shall go find my blanket and watch some sci-fi later

      I dream I am walking barefoot thru the grove and I see light, I see faint signs of life and a soft breeze tickles my face. Its quiet, but I can hear faint sounds....muted, of what I don't know...perhaps its the tree's speaking or the flowers whispering amongst themselves. Its been over a month since they've heard my voice, or felt my prescence here...a month of silence, a month of mourning so to speak. Everything is as it was when I left here...its still breathtakingly beautiful, its just silent, like a tomb, empty of laughter and my treasure is gone. I suppose its time to consider bringing it back. Its my grove, I can do as I wish here, no point in destroying a beautiful world for someone else's wrong. I know I did no wrong. If its wrong to love then yes,  I am guilty. I am paying my dues, but it's my grove, its my Arboretum and I deserve some small bit of happiness even if its just a few memories. They are mine and no one can have them...I can keep them here with the rest of my treasures, they can't take that, no one can. I'll toss my beautiful gemstones into the nightsky so the stars will sparkle once more...I will call the wolves home and return the unicorns to their pastures. I will play in fields of wild flowers with the dragonfairys and dance around the fires with the elves! I will slide down rainbows and swing from moonbeams and I will play once more like a true Dragon! I will fly!! I will toss my tears into the lake so it shimmers like it once did and I will cry no more for him, for he is lost to me and I'm ok with that now. But I have the grove so I am not alone. I have the castle and I have all the creatures of the wood. It is here I will pick up the pen and write. It is here I will laugh, love and cry...because its mine and no one owns me or my heart now. I shall do as I please here cause it pleases me to do so. I shall deny myself nothing! The Arboretum shall be my Oblivion.  I am DRAGON, and I know who I am now.

      This game rocks!!!!! Thanks CrystalDragon for starting the alliance...anyone who wants to play stop by Archadia and ask...we'd love to have you join the alliance and play DragonWars with us...its lots of fun. Sorry the chatrooms been a little quiet lately we have been off playing DragonWars lol. Also Welcome aboard Rarth and Plague.....and DarkLord....you naughty naughty Dragon lol....oh whatever shall I do with you..............sighhhhhhh........

I left my heart with someone.....and that was Fueryon.....well Fueryon.....you can throw it away now because that heart doesnt live any longer....sigh.....just toss it away....it won't beat for you any more. Take care of yourself....I hope you and the wife live happily ever after, I truly do.. thank you for the memories (k).....Goodbye Voidbeast (f)

      For those of you FUCKING with me and the CHATROOM, its time for you to move on....its not closing....but remember this, what goes around comes around and I will be there to see that happen...so enjoy your little games now. I will be the last one laughing. So kiss my fucking DRAGONASS..........

      Im so sleepy....curls up with my pillow.....and I watch the storm rage thru the window.  I listen as it lashes out its fury against the earth and I feel like that storm today....angry.......and I let the tears loose and they flow like the rain does down my window. I dont know why I even care....but I know this...I never will to this extent again. I swear this to myself. To thine own self with I be true...its all about me now.

      curls up and sobs......si mi dout fueryon.....si mi dout................

      What throne?   What memories?  Cryptic messages?  Does anyone speak fucking english anymore?  Who is We? What happens if the memories dont return?  What happens if he doesnt return?  WTF!!!!!!!   WHO  protects WHO and WHY so many dam SECRETS??????   Just blowing off here lol......OK.....IF ANYONE HAS ANY ANSWERS I'D LOVE TO HEAR THEM PROVIDED THEY ARE ALLOWED TO TELL!!!!  

Sighs...........

      Dreams....memories....shadows....wisps or thoughts, what are they....am I haunted....why are some familiar, like I've known them before and why do I see in pieces. Maybe my mind is just a fragmented puzzle waiting to be put back together, hence the pieces, or maybe its just shattered beyond all repair....like a mirror....in shards. What am I to remember......maybe I really dont want to......there is safety in that I suppose....hmmm......just a thought.........

      .....curls up......watching.....waiting......sighs................

..........Once upon a time there was this place...it was a grove...a magical place...a quiet dark place where lived a Beast and his mistress a
Dragon. They spent many days and nites here together. At first there was nothing here but the dark and slowly the Dragon brought in some treasure, her treasures. She brought in the elves....the herd of unicorns....her pack of wolves....she built her castle....she threw all her gemstones in the lake to make it shimmer and tossed some into the night sky to make it sparkle and twinkle. She had fields of flowers and sounds of laughter could be heard throughout the grove. Cerberus protected this grove and she made friends with him and feed him sour skittles and gummi worms and let him loose occasionally to play in the fields with the unicorns. Although his idea of play wasnt to the unicorns liking it was hilarious to the Dragon. The Dragon could do anything she wanted to here...swing on moonbeams, ride the clouds, slide down rainbows, get drunk with the elves and run with the wolves. She rode the unicorns and slept in the field of tulips. She had anything her lil heart desired in this grove her Beast made just for her and she had him. He was all hers. Oh how she loves her Beast...she would snuggle up to him at nite and curl up in his tail, snug in the fact that he was there and she was safe cause he was never that far from her. They talked about things here, anything....laughed, loved...he'd listen to her cry here....it wasnt a game, it was just what it was...it was a Beast and his Dragon. The Beast pledged he would love her as long as Gaia breathed. It was a happy magical place and love lived here.         The grove is silent and surrounded by the mists now...the Beast is gone, the Dragon walks the halls of the castle alone and her footsteps echo throughout it lonely halls. No laughter is heard in the grove now, just sounds of  a Dragon in mourning....the Elves have moved on, the stars no longer sparkle, the waters are still, and the unicorns have disappeared...Cerberus has gone with his master....and the wolves have moved on....now I am left a dark quiet place once more and now I contend with a different sort of  pack and dragon slayers. Now I understand why I have never chosen a name for myself, I am to be a nameless shadow dragon who walks the mysts of what once was and will never be. I am and always will be Caiask di wer Fueryon and you have my heart Fueryon wherever you are....I will love you forever...so take care of yourself....I wish you nothing but the best and will always be right where you left me.......si mi dout

      Fueryon....as always, as long as I am on this net, si mi dout ......you have my .......Si itov Wux ....sia maurg, sia itov ........ Caiask di wer Fueryon

      Ive been kinda quiet here lately, gathering my thoughts. I am lost within them. Ive been spending a lot of time in Archadia chatting, playing.....laughing. Everything is turned upside down right now. I'm not writing right now, so all my energy is spent in just day to day life and play. Maybe soon I will find my way out, perhaps I will stay and wander the abyss I call my mind and see what there is to see. Maybe I will find me, finally. I was always hoping to meet me someday. Very odd feeling when you wake up and realize you've lost yourself....and you have no idea how long you've been gone. Yea I know sounds kinda crazy, but there it is. Well gotta run...have a good one